A child of God educating other children.

I've finally had to draw the line, and put myself before everything else. I hate this decision, but I need to do what is best. When my health takes a toll and then affects my student teaching, which will affect my graduation this semester, something has to be done. I've waited as long as possible to do this, but missing the last 3 days of school, and stressing out today about trying to figure out what lesson to do this week, I can't do this to myself anymore.

This week will be my last Wednesday at youth. I'll continue helping on Sunday mornings and with other events that pertain to the youth group, but Wednesday's Small Groups wont be on my list of leadership roles.

I have not come to this conclusion yet, although it's been on my mind for a few months because of my girls. They mean the world to me, and I do not want to let them down. I also do not want to let Tim down with this either. I hate letting go of something that I love so dearly, but I know I cannot stretch myself so thin that it starts to affect every aspect of my life in a negative way. I pray that God will use this in some way to strengthen other aspects of the youth in ways that I am clueless to right now.

Maybe this will open me up to be able to go to more of the youth's extra-curricular activities, who knows. I know God will take care of everything, and I delight knowing that. This isn't the first time I have had to let go of something I love to do. It doesn't make this easier, but it makes me more confident to know that everything will be okay.

Posted in: on Sunday, February 19, 2006 at at 5:57 PM